Byzantine Birds

BYZANTINE BIRDS

Peter Lyssiotis

M A S T ER T H I E F

A thrush turns its grey head
into the silence, looking
for something I’d lost years ago.
 
Beneath those fir trees
where the centaur 
dropped his semen, 
a dark angel 
springs up. 
 
In the November dusk
the sparrows went mad:
threw themselves out of the trees
because of the orange blossoms
 
The birds are nesting – 
so now, there is no one 
to wake the dead:
 
there’s no messenger to send
 
There is a red mist between the bird and the mountain There is no voice between the bird and the sky.
 
I am forgiven by the birds that dwell in me. 
 
a white shirt draped on the back of the chair moves to the breathing of a gypsy wind.
 
I wasn’t ready for all this silence.
 
“I will be as meticulous as a watchmaker and whatever it costs me, I will stand with you.”
 
Ah, the pleasure of being a bead in a rosary!
 
I look for my homeland under different stones.
 
The feathers I caress do not flinch.
 
Like a mother washing the feet of a tired son.
 
No matter which way I turn I will always land on shores where I will dissolve.
 
This is the call which takes us back into the world.
 
How do you sleep on such hard ground?
 
Beneath the winter bark.
 
With a voice like lavender in the morning.
 
Silence is a nameless wound.
 
How often will we let Spring fool us?
 
I was promised a new question.
 
I hear the key turn in the lock.
 
Old lies in new disguises.
 
A dove
returning to its nest
turned out to be a falling
almond blossom
 
Yes I’ve heard about 
the 3 ravens 
who watch over 
the heart of a solitary 
rose 
(They all answer to the name: Desire)
 
Your hands are 2 beautiful birds
 
and each bird song 
is preserved in the 
cool embrace 
of this ancient mirror
 
A sad violin. A closed book.
A flickering electric light
 
And a broken angel 
who cannot find enough sleep.
 
At the edge of the carob trees
a sparrow
with its stubborn 
little beak
rolls a large tear
past a group of old men
who are talking
about miracles
 
Far, 
very far away
further even than the mirror 
in the corridor 
are the things
I still desire
 
a flight of swans spreads
and spreads into the forever;
it is endless… and white
 
a glass bird descends each evening and pierces my eyes pierces my heart my sleep.
Is this then, how I’m going to be punished?
 
From behind the wall
we hear the flapping of wings;
does this mean
we have won back our innocence?
 
There’s a cold wind tonight – 
it will bend the orange trees 
it will harden the stars
and tomorrow the birds’ songs
will be sweater because of it.
 
They told me
there was a forest
and a lake
 
and a sky
here.
 
What happened?
 
A match struck at dawn – 
no, 
it’s a goldfinch! 
 
At twilight
a blind angel
is pinned by a crescent moon:
 
There will be only mourning stars
in our sky tonight
 
These hopes
are not recorded
on any map.
 
Why doesn’t it hurt any more?
 
Will I gamble my heart, again?
 
I heard the devil cough.
 
A falcon falls in love with a young girl. At first the young girl hides behind a wall. Then she hides behind a bush of geraniums; then a foreign sky. Finally she hides behind the crucifix that hangs from her neck. The falcon concedes. 
 
Lives cross other lives without a sound.
 
The lark is blessed by it own silence.
 
The sky descends among us, as it always has
 
… and this morning I found the warm wing of a marble angel on my doorstep.
 
Angels are lonelier than wolves. 
 
The bee-eater goes from blossom to blossom in the same way a man crosses a deserted street.
 
… and as always, desire leaves its red finger marks
 
old wounds open again in winter
 
Tonight the moon lends the kestrel a helping hand
 
Always; I wait for the clean blue thrust of the knife
 
and beyond this sky, another sky and beyond that, another.
 
We live in fear that yesterday’s tenderness will go unrewarded.
 
“Do I want to be the meticulous as a watchmaker again, today?” asks the goshawk.
 
and from those 3
wounds
the smell of jasmine
 
The nightingale 
left its song behind
 
Is that it –
 
on your windowsill?
or has it moved to
the edge of the wooden table?
 
No, it’s there, on your pillow!
 
I wasn’t ready for the sky to descend
on us this way.
 
Behind us are those things
that have lost their wings
and are forever
immobile – 
like that wounded star
which is drawn secretly 
to a blood stained aisle
between 2 mirrors.
 
If I sit here
and keep quite still, 
say nothing
and wait
Will things right themselves?
 
These are the blue pieces
of day
I’ve been given
to dream on
 
Dawn, already
dizzy with morning sun,
trips on the stairs
on its way to the bell tower 
 
so the past is gone
and I’ve escaped
 
Such, things are possible
aren’t they?
 
A sparrow
mistakes 
a jail
for church
 
The air smells of the past
Byzantium perhaps,
but it has the strength
to walk you back
towards hope
towards something lasting – 
something not broken
towards faith even
if I can let it.
 
The thrush is alone – 
it flies in a world
which still looks for the answers
in its own bloody entrails
 
A beautiful sky
 
made of
 
blue feathers
 

As if life was a bird
heading out across the water
its wings spread wide-
uplifted

An angel’s hand
is fumbling in my pocket

(maybe he’s after my pocket knife
so he can peel the orange he’s holding.)

Look at how well
fables
grow on fig trees.

I want a heart
that will dream
beyond my sleeping

The feathers I caress do not flinch.

The mountain thyme grips the tiny feet of the linnet, like a mother holding the feet of her tired son.

and it seems no matter which way I turn I will always land on shores where I feel myself dissolve.

This is the call which takes us back to the world.

We try so hard not to die, that by the time there’s nothing left to do but die, we realize no one has taught us to die properly – with grace.

My dead father’s voice, like lavender in the morning.

The sky is such a deceiving mirror.

At the bottom of each thought there are these white oleanders.

… because like the poet said “Human beings can be more than themselves.”

The long tailed flight of the sparrow hawk – like virgin honey on warm bread.

The sound of the old days are everywhere, waiting – and they know me well enough to call me by name

The abandoned mobile phone on the wooden bench lights up and a recorded voice repeats a prayer – over and over.

Why doesn’t it hurt any more?

Will I gamble my heart again?

and my dead mother’s voice always insistent “Your enemy is always riding by.”

The thistles, in full ecstasy, watch the hovering kestrel.

The forked tail of the swallow brushes against the pine tree: I hear a key turn in the lock.

When is the faithful heart wrong?

I was promised a new question.

Swallows have listened to
His stories for years
And now they bring them
over the mountain:

through the moonlight.

These stories are so pure, that
The swallows leave nothing behind.

Get up!
Fly, you lazy swans
Rise up with those delicate bones,
The day is filling up with music

A stranger’s hand marks her door.

Thistles from her bed cover half her soul.

Her children tremble like a forest burning.

A sky full of birds approaches from the south.

She knows all this, so she turns off
The flickering light and opens the back door

The interval between birds

is unbearable

I lie in bed

and
the moon
lies on the pillow next to me:

neither of us get much sleep.

Look!

That sparrow!

He’s brought
the fir tree
with him.

Is that the echo which led us here?

The bird had fallen out of its nest and onto a stony world. It couldn’t help trying to get the feeling back towards its neck, out to its wings, its tail and its feet – trying to connect them and then trying to find a breath to catch to send back to its beloved body.

The finch slipped out of the monastery and flew down to the port. There it settled on the mast of “The Queen of Mercy”.
The ship was sailing towards a land the finch has heard of. A land which was the meeting place of exiles and dreamers. A place far away, planted with spindly, sun – parched trees – where any corner of cool shade was a miracle. The finch knew all this. It was what it wanted.

I don’t think I’ve loved enough… that kind of love that moves in a straight line: linking one moment with another.

“Is the time of birds over?” she asked.

Hope passed us by this evening
– a young bride
with feathers round her neck

A young man
(maybe even someone like I was)
abandoned his heart
on the lowest branch
of an olive tree;

over the years it lost its bitterness
ripened,

won’t anyone pick it?

The old questions.

The old doubts.

The old misgivings.

It’s the old fires
which keep you warm.

Maybe I’ve lived
too close
to the life
I was given.

A white blossom
falls from the eye
of the raven

Had this magpie come
From the tree of life
or from
the gallows?

There is too much world for just one man And one bird.

…and the sparrow flies off
full of pity
because it knows
too much about us.

When a feather falls from the sky
and brushes against your face:

be prepared
You’ll learn something
that has happened
in that other world.

The Spanish,
who know a thing or two about death,
say:
“A door is not a door until
a dead man walks through it.”

and so, my dead father
comes out of church
unsummoned – he holds out his hand.

He doesn’t look like the man I knew;

This one is young, handsome, strong.

His hair is in beautiful, combed in dark waves.

Unsummoned – he holds out his hand.

How the date palm shudders

When the sparrow’s tiny claws
grip onto one of its fronds.

A sparrow dies in a lemon tree:
its cry fills the citrus grove
but disturbs nothing

(It’s a private matter the arrangements were made in a language we don’t understand and in a time beyond.)

A raven cries out
insisting
that God
cover the trees with leaves

then another bird cries out

then another;

until Spring
emerges
slowly
from their beaks

I stare at the rolling clouds

and wait for something familiar

soon
my eyes will lose their way.

Today I can feel it-
the sky is too big for me.

and on that day

God until become a man

again

Know pain in a different way

and with an antique smile
on his face He will show

that He understands again
– from the beginning.

At the insistence of these doves

the words we’d abandoned

have returned

and opened
leaf by leaf
to remind us
of how vast
the world is.

3 words fell
from the book he gave me

they fell
onto the dry soil
at my feet.

What can I do
with them?

Birds insist
on trying to speak
to John the Baptist
whose icon leans against
a closed window.